{SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.}

Sunday, April 24, 2005

title:{This Is Getting Tiring}

Choir choir choir everyday. Its really very exhausting. We got the numbers now but we really have lots of distance to cover. The power of words and psychology is one that cannot be underestimated. So from now onwards we should be like thinking Gold With Honours. Must get it, for I believe that our way of choir will be the best just as CJC is. So slack, so fun but once we work hard, we go all the way and really whack it out. So I believe that we can do it. Rather we will do it. Thrash all them gold choirs. Make the judges feel a sense of awe and wonder when they hear us.

This whole week will be totally mental. Well I've enough of this stupid fighting. Man I'm going to get that post even if it's going to hurt people. This week will be tough but I'll make sure I do my fullest to train everyone up to the optimum standard where we can do the ah part without screwing up.

Well cool I feel so hyped out now. But anyway screw the darn politics. I think its so useless. Man really if you can't handle don't do stuff you can't properly accomplish.

I guess this entry somewhat doesn't make sense. But who cares as long as I understand its good enough.

9:42 pm;

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

title:{Choir Again}

Well well well. Right now I'm pretty pissed off. Not pretty good start to changing myself but I just can't help it. I'm so sorry to everyone but I really can't control myself so I'll just bitch all I like. Its a free world so they say but ya, its my own thoughts and mine only so anyone wanna complain you go to me.

Guess who's back? Well I'll give you a hint. Hmmm, even a hint seems too obvious. Who do I not really like and it missing for a long time. Alright! Bingo to those who did guess it right. Its Joey. Yes our missing "SL" is back again. And I don't know why he's even back. I doubt he's inside, and he's probably there just to leech points.

All these while I've been thinking. Sure the post goes to someone else considering the amount of time he's been missing. Well yes its true he injured his leg, but I don't suppose that same excuse can be used for the Christmas concert huh. I mean Jon, who was not even in the concert, was there more times than our "SL" did. Well, not that I'm greedy or power hungry, but I really think he does not deserve it. For goodness sake, he doesn't even want to commit to this CCA. Yet he's just doing a fine job being absent for so long and wow he's getting the points for doing just that. So is this some new arrangement I'm not aware of. Do guys/tenors get special privileges such as ability to miss out choir and still be not kicked out just because of the fact there isn't enough of us.

Cool, you know I really never thought of that. Probably the prez doesn't like me taking over that position too. Everything that goes through me is either tell joey this or that. Like he will do anything in the first place. Sheesh this really pisses me off. I don't mind him, he's a cool person that is a great part of our tenor group. But makes me angry is that fact he gets points for doing nothing and being absent. WOW. How amazing can it be. I wanna be like him too.

Sorry if this seems rather harsh or anything. Personal attack, bitching, stupid this and that, call it whatever you like. I don't care. I will maintain my stand on this and yes indeed it only reflects what I alone think. But seriously, not that I'm eyeing his position, but if you asked me, I'd rather no one get the point instead of a slacker getting credit for doing nothing at all.

9:00 pm;

Monday, April 11, 2005

title:{Life Is Not So Good}

Well looking back on the many weeks that have passed since I've last blogged.(Very long indeed). Sorry to those regulars if there are any. Anyway I'm back into depression mood, either its that or its apathy. I don't care though.

So many things have came and gone. Stupid timetable change. Stupid Chinese B. Stupid this and that. Man so much for trying to live my life normally. There just are so many things in this world that likes to screw me upside down.

"Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me." Wonder who ever said this. Kinda makes me think about how I react to stuff. Sure sometimes people say or do some stuff that hurts your feelings. Well life dictates you try your best to ignore them and do your best. Human instinct dictates either you feel upset and be depressed or for my case, I convert that pain into anger. Well no one's gonna make me feel crappy without me making them feel crappy too.

I like to fight back, I don't know why. When I react, I tend to like to fight fire with fire and add oil into that blazing mess. Violent reaction I suppose. Kinda irritated by how the human race just loves eliminating each other. Power just blinds everyone I suppose so. I know how it feels, to be angry, to want to possess power so that people will bow down to your will. I will shun it all. But the only thing that prevents me from doing so, is my uncanny instinct that insists a lot that I be an agressive self-defence person. I will ignore all that is around, living my life happily and if anyone should provoke me, that guy is dead.

No, no, no. This will not do. Its bad. No one should be subjected to such crazy berserk trait of mine. I will change for better, not worse. In fact looking back on who I was and how things have gone so far, it was quite good. Managed to be someone different, but still more obstacles await. NAPFA coming, and at this rate I'm going to fail it. Crap. Well anyway I very tired of many things. I don't want to fight no more. I want to live normally. Peacefully without distraction, without evils of the world.

But I guess I already got part of my wish. My frienship circle has expanded really large since the beginning of my JC life. Now the task at hand is how I'll appreciate it, how I'll treasure it and how I'll take care of it. Along with studies piling up and the A'levels, NS all looming before me. My road now is cluttered with many things to clear. All I ask now is the support and strength to walk on. To travel with a strong will and possess enough perseverance to pass through this very difficult stage, both emotionally and physically draining.

And from this I hope to experience another change, that will bond everyone of us together. And hopefully be able to achieve our goals and soar above everyone else.

11:45 am;