{SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.}

Friday, March 31, 2006

title:{Countdown}

7 more days left before doom arrives. Been a great week I suppose. First was my birthday celebration at Cafe Cartel. Got 2 lovely books, one being Brokeback Mountain. That was one very unexpected book. Lol. Thanks guys for the wonderful gifts and stuff like that. Made my day really.

Haiz. Finally ended my work at StatsChipPAC. No more high pay, no more working office hours, no more having fun with everyone in the department. So sad. But still got lots of gifts from my colleagues. Mostly chocolates, lol and my supervisor like gave me an anti-oxidant bottle of pills. Awesome man. Got bookmark and nice cards from the 2 lovely temp ladies. Of course I gave out stuff as well, Hershey Kisses. Man the big packet really is a lot. Managed to distribute all out.

Went out to watch Ice Age 2 with my secondary school friends. Man the movie is really funny and cool. Worth your money to watch. Go watch it people. Don't listen to reviews or whatever crap. Just go watch it.

Everything is changing and moving at such a fast pace. Seemed like only a short while again when I first joined StatsChipPAC, and now I'm out already. Working really makes time flies. But at least I made lots of friends and had a good time. Now my meals at New York Pizza are like 'cheaper' and I get people to hang out and talk with.

Looking at my friends, I find that I have many different group of people that if they were to meet, they will not really click very well, considering the different backgrounds and stuff like that. Its so cool that at least I can build rapport easily.

Haiz, army is coming up. Despite all the advices and stuff like that, I guess you gotta have to experience it then you know what it really is like. Kinda nervous man. Well hope I'll have lots of friends around. 10 years in boys school, 2 years in mixed and now another 2 years with guys again. My life is practically like so different to add females in. Guess that's why I'm so unsuccessful huh? LOL.

11:58 pm;

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

title:{Lifeless Eyes}

Monotonous workout everyday. Work work work, go home, eat slack sleep. Repeat this for 5 days a week. Occasionally I'll go exercise or something. I've been trying to injure myself. Hopefully can downgrade my PES status such that I'm 'good' enough to get into MDC.

Birthday is coming up. Only got 2 things to wish for

19 Million Bucks(One million for each year)
Fast acting poison(The kind Romeo used at Juliet's tomb so I can end this miserable existence)
Of course I must have both, not either one. At least when I'm not around got enough money as compensation for parents

11:57 pm;

Sunday, March 19, 2006

title:{Time Flies}

Time flies. Everything is just zooming past me. My life just goes on like that. Been working for like 5 weeks already. More than month. Wow since valentines day until now. Can't imagine how time could pass so quickly. Just a few more weeks and its into NS. Too fast. Haven't really much time to sit down and quietly think about what I'm going to do in the future. Where does my path lead to?

Now stuck with lots of questions in my head. So frustrating to think about the future. So much conditions. Haiz. I hate it man. I feel life at this point of time, has so many points to go to, it feels like a dead-end. I wonder if I've really hit the dead end.

Alcohol. I don't see how people can get high on it. I don't get high on it anymore. Its killing my brain cells. Killing me. But not fast enough I guess. Wish there was a faster way to do it.

Had a secondary school friends gathering again. Been getting together quite often. Went over to JY's house. Turns out he's same section as Wannok. What a small world. Ate nasi lemak for dinner and all of us popped over to his house to watch rented VCDs. Man SAW is f-ing twisted. The director probably got a screw loose or something. Got knocked out after watching Ladder 49. Super boring show. Woke up and we started talking about politics and stuff like that. Quite fun to be with the guys. Feels more natural, thought language not very civilized.

Sianz, few more weeks left. And time is running up.

11:38 pm;

Sunday, March 12, 2006

title:{Ultimate Sianz}

Well since saturday afternoon things have been pretty hectic and hardcore. First off it was off to University Open Houses. Wanted to go to NTU's but since Robin wanted to go to NUS so I decided to follow him instead. Man the talks were super sucky. Imagine a School of Computing talk that has no powerpoint slides and the speakers were just practically promoting the school with no mention of course structure and stuff like that. Man so stupid. And the food bazaar is super rip off. Expensive and crap food.

Later on went to meet secondary school friends. Man its good to meet some people again. Especially Ashley. I miss scolding him a lot. LOL. Anyways we went to Sizzler to eat. Man its so expensive. I've been like spending lots of money this whole week. First it was at the hong kong cafe, next at Seoul Garden and now at Sizzler. And adding transportation I've probably spent like 100 bucks plus this week alone. We wandered around and went to arcade to try the House Of The Dead 4. Man its super siao lor. And we saw a couple play until the second last boss. The girlfriend was like super awesome while her boyfriend kinda sux. But score wise, I guess the girlfriend purposely miss a few shots so not to malu her boyfriend.

Then we walked around trying to find access back to CityLink. All the routes from Suntec are all closed. Then to our horror. We found out we missed all the trains that can take us back to Hougang. Naturally we started blaming Ashley lol. Luckily my friend's father had a 10 seater van that took us to Hougang Plaza where we commenced second part of activities, Pool. First we had a drink at Kopitiam and talked about the secondary school days. It was fun. I never had such free flow of vulgarities for so many years. Every sentence has a bad word acting as a punctuation.

After pool everyone else went home and I slept for about 2 hours plus before waking up and remembering that we wanted to swimming. Tried to rush and end up, everyone else was late lol. WWL was late and end up didn't go because of flu. SJ stupid pungsei kia. Anyways had a cool swim and tanning session which ended with a nice lunch as a finale to our great secondary school meeting.

Later on went to library and home before proceeding to Bishan's Crystal Jade Kitchen to celebrate my grand mother's 70th birthday. Was quite okay until one part when I started becoming a bit sianz and start brooding over everything else again. Haiz.

10:28 pm;

Thursday, March 09, 2006

title:{Pride}

Saw my previous recent blog titles. Out of 5, 4 were about my depressing state. Well that's kinda a long drag I must say. I'll try to snap out of it as soon as I can.

Anyways today was quite an okay day. Did some long deserved exercise, my legs really really miss out a lot. My breathing was okay but my legs get tired easily. So ran lesser than usual and decided to do some funny stuff, like balancing on one leg on the balance beam, or try to jog on the spot. End up skipping 2 steps jumping up the stairs and running/walking down. And doing for like 5 times 2 sets. My legs are like wobbly now. Lots of jumping around like mad monkey I'll tell you.

Went back home and saw the newspaper. LOL. Saw an article about STATS ChipPac. Man so that's what they actually do. Test chips for stuff like Ipod and all the high tech stuff. I thought it was just normal testing, not for these high end materials. Man so cool. Well what do you expect, ST Assembly Test Services. ST is like Singapore Technologies. Got the Temasak Holdings as a backup. Not a small fry company man.

9:50 pm;

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

title:{Losing Myself}

I'm totally losing it. I just slip deeper and deeper into my dark self, giving in into my own depression. Lack of endorphins. I think. Well even after I exercise, I still will just drop morale and feel shitty. They say its all about your state of mind, how you choose to perceive things.

Coke + Alcohol + Panadol = Lots of bubbles. The whole thing just fizzes a lot. Taste kinda funky too, got the powdery panadol taste. Lots of bubbles. Its like when I drop in the tablet the whole thing starts to fizzle and start overflowing man. Freaky chemical reaction. I don't wanna know what actually happened. I don't care anyway.

Had dinner with Jon Sim, Robin and Matthew. Computing people having dinner at HK cafe in Kovan. Kinda cool to have gathering near my place. First time I could like go home in less than half an hours time. Tried the baked rice, cool stuff. Kinda pricey though that place but it was worth it. Talked about lots of rubbish. Well I don't know. I still feel like shit. Those pushups only cleared my mind temporarily.

12:13 am;

Saturday, March 04, 2006

title:{Lost In Space}

Lost. Without a direction.
Nowhere to go, nowhere to go.
My path is unclear.
My road is full of doubt.
So where should I go?

Haiz given my results. I don't think where I should go. People say its good enough to go many places. That's not what I really want. I want some direct path where I can go. Not something that gives me a headache in decision making. I haven't really thought that far ahead in my life. I can't really see beyond the day I'm living. Is that a good or bad thing?

Anyways life has been rather stressful at work. At least in school when I feel a slight tickle of stress, I'll immediately stop work and slack. At work, I gotta keep overclocking myself until I get my paperwork done. And that's not all. After I finish my stuff, more work comes in and it just piles up. Man not easy to make money. I think I'm underpaid for all this nonsense. Oh wells. What should I do when I grow up. All the times when people ask and the young innocent voice would reply like "Fireman, policeman, teacher and all the other stuff."

Now, times have changed. Everything is view in a different context. The world has changed. Everything is not the same as before. Kinda restrictive. I wish at least there can be something or someone that can show me the way. I feel like I'm walking around blind.

10:28 pm;