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Saturday, June 18, 2005

title:{Advice}

Hmmm even watching TV shows you can learn something. Thought it was kinda interesting so I just typed it out. Its a monk on this chinese show giving advice to a man with loads of troubles and yea something like what I'm feeling right now.

4 Lines Of Advice:
Be Tolerant
Avoid Anger
Forgive Whenever You Can
Retreat When Necessary.

10:39 pm;

Friday, June 17, 2005

title:{The World Screwing Itself}

Hi hi everyone out there. I'm so sorry but after watching a flash video I thought it would be nice to write this blog entry. It is extremely vulgar so those who are faint at heart from refrain from reading anymore.

Flash Clip Website

Well I was watching this and reading some of the reviews. Its quite a sad story about a little girl who lost her father because of the September 11 attack. Maybe you should watch it if you got the time.

Well simply put there are two categories of people who review. Those who cried, and those who are FUCKED UP TO THE CORE!! MAY GOD SEND YOU TO SATAN AND MAKE YOU BURN IN HELL FOR ETERNITY YOU GOD DAMNNED ASSHOLE!!!. Ya go ahead and blam this shit if you want to I don't give a heck. I'm not the one going to hell ass. You are so going to hell for insulting people's death. You have the heart the size of a gluon( A hypothetical massless, neutral elementary particle believed to mediate the strong interaction that binds quarks together.) Well that's practically nothing you assholes!!

Why am I making such a fuss? Am I being a brainless moron which you idiots think I am. No way you pieces of shit. I'm just merely celebrating the fact that you morons exist so as to give pleasure to those who are suffering because at least in the afterlife they don't have to burn in hell. They at least get some bliss and blessing from GOD. FUCK YOU ALL HEARTLESS CREATURES. May Satan shove durians up your stinking asses till you die over and over and over for eternity. I swear it will not be a sin to laugh at your damned misery. It will be a blessin just watch you morons suffer.

But come to think of it we should help these people. Like Jesus helped the sinners. I mean (qouting from a blog I read) 'who needs the doctor more? the sick and dying, or the healthy. Just like who needs our love and God's love more, the saints or the sinners. Well that's something to think about. So well, I'll forgive all your bastards out there. May God bless your dark soul and maybe you'll find solace for all your sins. You bastards.

12:15 am;

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

title:{Find Your Centre}

Man this exam stress is totally making me lose it. I'm going crazy, its making me paranoid and overreacting. Its so hard to think straight lately. All my thoughts just flying everywhere. Apparently things seem to revert back to like maybe last year. Things when it was like so chaotic. Thought I could have better organization of my ownself considering this being my second year. Now things are pretty messed up again.

Friends. Not the same anymore I suppose. I don't know who is who. Where do I stand. Am I back to being who I was again. Can't seem to click properly. Am I thinking too much. I feel much like I was in secondary school. Follow or lead. But even now I can't tell whethere I'm a follower or a leader. Who wants to follow? Or do I just want to be the lone ranger again. Man this sucks. Am I again overreacting and thinking too much. I don't really know.

So confusing these few days. Thought a few days break from studying might do some good. End up I let my thoughts run wild all over the place. Need to straighten things up. Hopefully I don't go crazy just because of the mid-years. Man I hate exams. The pressure to excel is great just as the need is. Must trash people's butt.

Somehow I'm really lost. I got my friends around people. People whom I can trust and talk to and share my feelings with. Even with them, I feel empty. God is missing in a way. Prayer, I pray every night. Yet there seems to be a wall. Am I again thinking too much and its just nothing. Really it seems my brain has been totally fried. Man this sux. I wish there is someone or something that can show me the way again. Despite everything around me, and having so much, I'm still not happy. I gotta just rethink everything again and see what exactly is missing and why is this just so weird.

8:16 pm;

Thursday, June 09, 2005

title:{Falling Deeper}

Alone, lost, with no one around that cares.
You reach out to hold onto nothing but air.
Darkness is all around you and the four walls are bleak.
You search around and find nothing indeed.
Why do such black horror haunt you all the time.
Closing on you as you weep and cry.
Hoping to end it all, hope to feel free.
But cruel as fate is you will never get there.
Searching for a friend, someone to hold.
A smile, a hug, a simple kiss.
All but nowhere in sight.
Where has everyone gone, why am I alone.
Like a balloon which has lost its master.
Floating aimlessly and awaiting the cruel death.
A loud burst which signals the end.
One that ends every life, as swiftly as death.
So dark it is, where has everyone gone.
My solace, my comfort all forgotten and lost.

8:51 pm;

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

title:{Sinking Into The Dark Side}

Sitting all alone at the sides, in the dark corner.
Hugging my legs close to myself as I watch the world pass by.
Walking, running, strolling, crawling, different legs, different speed.
It all becomes a blur as it forms the background.
Melting deep into the beyond as the darkness shrouds.
Lost, pain, hatred, depression, bleakness.
All of which leads to the Dark Side, or so they say.
They have been confused with which is the real pathway.
That ultimately leads you to the end.
What end can it be that you seek, to end it all.
Death, or just pure misery.
Death is such a sweet word yet is scorned by many.
People fear it, despise it, while others embrace it wholeheartedly.
The thought of blood dripping from one's wrist, forming a river of hope.
Hope that it will lead to everlasting bliss and rest.
Or just more pain and sorrow to those around you.
Stand up those who are wallowing in deep thoughts.
Fear not for there is a God.
Life is like the sand on the beach, where there are two sets of prints.
Your footprint and God's footprint.
He is always walking beside you guiding you all the way.
When there is trouble however, it becomes only one set.
Why? That is because He is carrying you, all the way to the end.
Until you can stand up again and hold his hand
Where you will walk to path's end.

10:00 pm;