Sunday, February 26, 2006
title:{Emotional Rollercoaster Ride}
Life is bad for me. My mind is in a state of confusion. I have no idea what is going on anymore. I just feel lots of ups and downs these few days. In fact this whole week is rather full of ups and downs. Like a freaking yo-yo my state of emotions is like either good or bad. So many times in a freaking week.
Let's recap. Friday night. Had dinner and went to meet some secondary school friends. Heard some funny NS story from the only guy who booked out while the rest were either still studying or waiting for enlistment. Then we went to the nearby playground and started playing with all the new stuff. So much difference between the playgrounds of today and of yesterday. Went off to play at the senior citizen's corner. They sure got some wicked exercise equipment there. Some bicycle pedals and the pebble path. Talked about what we knew and stuff like that. Ended up going home at 3 to 4 a.m in the morning.
Saturday. A day of rushing around. Had lunch at NYDC to celebrate Amelia's birthday. Pretty cool stuff considering the cool price as well. Then went off to try out for a choir. Apparently its part of an organization founded by the composer of 'Sunset'. Sang some latin song. Mozart's "Requiem" to be exact. Very nice song if you can get it right. All the tenor parts were so freaking high. Been a long time since I've sung. So ended up using pretty lots of falsetto even on the high F note. Not bad at sight-reading too. At least I didn't screw up much. Everyone looks like newbies. Well only from the looks. Don't think I'll be going back anyways. Its like so crazy, Eng Kee like pushing like crazy and banging on the keyboard. And well the style isn't suiting me. I guess I'm more acapella person than a choral person.
Went to library after dinner. Had an interesting question posed to me. "Why are you so sad?" Stunned me for a while. "Saw you walking very slowly and looking down". I replied with a lie : "It's because I'm tired." Technically, I'm tired. Tired of all the crap stuff happening to me. My brother's giving lot of trouble. Haiz. I can't fake happiness for much longer anymore. I'm gonna snap and someone's gonna get hurt. Or already gotten hurt considering the bruise mark I gave him last week.
I'm trying hard not to give up. Standing up and falling and standing up again. Life is not easy. Problem is I don't know who to turn to. I hate to seek the help of other's who have been giving me assistance for so long. Because it would seem that their efforts to help me have failed and that I've screwed up again. I don't want them to know that I'm such a failure. Pray hard people tell me. I don't even wish to seek His help considering how I failed terribly trying to become a better person. Haiz. Its not easy.
10:58 pm;
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
title:{L337 Lunch}
Today was simply teh roxxor! Simply put it was an awesome day. Well the only thing about today that was great was the lunch. Well I went out with the manager to meet her friend which is a supplier and we got to eat at a restaurant today!! Woohoo! Ordered qutie a lot of food for 3 people. But ya got the peking duck where the skin was wrapped with crepe. And got nice chicken and noodles and tofu with vegetable. Couldn't finish everything, eat until darn full. Awesome stuff, I feel so happy.
Well I've survived the week well. Got my pay yesterday. That was another good stuff. First time getting a 3 digit pay and the first digit is a 2. Woohoo finally got transport money and some extra cash to buy new shirts. And not to mention end of month getting new job's pay as well. I'm rolling in the dough!
Helped the HR department get my classmate today. So fast. The moment they interview him finish they just started putting him to work. So now the company has 5 CJC people including me and 4 of us are classmates. Super wicked. Anyways yes I'm feeling much better now. Bad bout of depression but kinda over it now. Should be alright. Taking everything one step at a time.
10:10 pm;
Sunday, February 19, 2006
title:{Life Sucks}
I managed to survive the alcohol ordeal. Long island tastes super weird man. Ended up with bloodshot eyes and like a bloated face. But still alive of course if not I would not be here typing this crap out. Haiz work gonna start again. But I don't feel up to it. Not that work is terrible or something, its a great learning experience. Its the person in me that feels terrible.
Today totally suck ass. My brother was like so darn stubborn and refused to go home from music class after just a slight scolding from the music teacher. Parents were practically unable to do much so it was up to me to bring him home. True to my berserk nature, it was always violence first, talk later. Seems that violence is not always the best way to solve stuff, in fact it solved nothing. So ended up trying to be diplomatic and humane to persuade him home, of course not without a simple wound/ bruise inflicted by me.
Man life sucks. I'm still bound my freakish and violent nature. How is one supposed to be a saint like that. Bah I gotta start inventing ways to go kill myself now. Alcohol isn't really useful. Maybe I'll go try panadols or something. So much depression, so much crap. Its hard to stay sane nowadays. I bet once the results come out, all the tall buildings are gonna be crowded at the top floor with queues forming and people arguing who is to jump down first. Heck I will just simply push everyone else down and ditch the parachute into the bin. So long stupid world.
3:50 pm;
Friday, February 17, 2006
title:{Down In The Dumps}
Finally the week has ended. However it didn't seem very fun at all. Was totally depressed after work today. So I just went to Orchard to look around for my shirts. So expensive man nowadays the shirts. Saw some cool designs but uncool prices. Walked back to MRT deciding to eat near my place instead. Saw a lamboghini. It was so slick. Black and short. Totally awesome.
Went back to Compasspoint and used my coupon for the KFC meal. Wanted to have a drink at the library but closing time was so early. So went to eat KFC instead. Today's lunc was so weird. I thought we were going to some coffee shop and it turns out they went to Khatib to eat New York Pizza. So shocking, going back to where I work to eat there. Totally unexpected.
Haiz I don't know why but am kinda hit bad by depression. Totally moving around like zombie in orchard and on my way home. Slow motion and stuff like that. Bought a tube of chips and some cookies to go drown my sorrows in. Also bought 2 bottles of booze. Gonna try out that theory that you can die of alcohol intoxication if you don't too much at one go. Well I don't suppose 2 bottles is gonna kill me but never mind.
10:27 pm;
Thursday, February 16, 2006
title:{New Job}
Woohoo! Finally I got a new job. Got an admin job working at Stats ChipPac. So fun man. First day at work already start doing stuff and today is the 3rd day. Wow, the cool thing is that there are CJC people working there too!. 3 guys in fact and 2 of them are my classmates. Is that a great coincidence or what. Too bad I'm working in a different department as them and too bad for them, cause my department is the one that has temp JC girls while their don't lol. Smart people man. Got HCJC and NYJC girl. Finally got an upgrade from my previous job.
Hmm man I love working at my job. So much fun. Although a bit stress man. Lots of filing to do. Finally managed to clear one thick stack of paper. Man the filing system is really bad. If file gets too thick gotta like divide into 2 files and reprint all the labels again. So irritating. Learning stuff. Was at my second day and already start to help draft contract. Lol. Although it was just simply typing but man stupid word just can't let me do my format right. Oh wells. One week has come and gone so quickly. Gotta go back to the pizza pay and get my pay. Probably about a hundred bucks or so. Well some pocket money to spend.
10:12 pm;
Saturday, February 11, 2006
title:{CJ Fireworks}
MAN!!! Today totally rockz big time. Well only for the evening part. First was just a normal meeting with Cheryl for our dinner and then walk around and talk nonsense. Then since there was the River Hong Bao, we decided to go there and see the fireworks. The fireworks aren't really the best attraction because the activity that followed was the best of all time. Fireworks was pretty impressive. Got heart shaped ones...lol. Anyways took some pictures. They seemed to last shorter than yesterdays'. Must cost a lot of money to organize these stuff, especially if you're like having fireworks for the 15 days of Chinese New Year.
Anyways we took picture, actually rather I took pictures while she took the video on the phone. We were walking past some food stalls and Lo and Behold what do we see? CJC people man. The legion people as well as seniors, let's name them all. Jon Chan, John Sim, Audrey, Alison, William, Darren. Man so cool to meet CJC people. We just chat then we went to beside the river and planned a crazy activity.
We decided to wave to those passing boats that come from clark quay loaded with tourists and just act crazy. LOL. It was super fun man, we just wave like mad people and shouted all sorts of greetings. There was also the one we pretend to look at the sky and people would just follow us. So darn funny man. It was simply awesome. Then we changed spots to opposite the river and did likewise. And probably chased away some couples who were trying to enjoy a quiet time alone lol. Its fun to have people wave back too. Man CJC people really rockz. I love CJC man. You just meet up with people, and even if you don't know them, you can just still have great fun.
12:30 am;
Friday, February 10, 2006
title:{Promotion}
Woohoo! Yes I've been promoted. Not at work of course but in life. I've finally been promoted from a noob/newbie photographer to an amateur lol. As of now I don't use the stupid auto settings on my camera. Yes man. Yesterday night was fun. Was out at River Hong Bao with John Sim and we were like playing with cameras and trying many different ways to take shots. I got lots of cool pictures man. Took the Merlion, the Esplanade, and not to forget the fireworks that occured last night too. Man awesome stuff.
Then even went to outside the Esplanade to tested the macro settings which produced a fantastic picture. Let me see if i can upload that up. Anyways it was a great and productive day. Man totally loved it. I think i can upload my personal favourite up.
12:29 pm;
Friday, February 03, 2006
title:{I Can't Feel My Legs}
Man! Can you believe I just got home from work. Its like about 12:46 a.m now. Got home about 20 mins ago. Today or since yesterday I've been working like crazy man. Started out with a 9a.m shift which usually ends at 1p.m before the replacement comes. Turns out the replacement isn't feeling well so got extended later to 6p.m. Before you know it, it gets extended even more till 11:30p.m. Man its craziness. 14 hr and 30 mins of craziness torture. My legs. I can't feel them anymore. Been standing almost all the time. I sat down only for lunch. No dinner at all. Good diet. Lol.
My legs now are super sore. But I guess it was a great day. First time experience a whole day workout. Really workout man. Sweat a lot. And served some crazy crowd. Even at 10 plus got people wanna eat. Made me do more work only. Oh wells. Even my fingers are kinda sore from punching the keypad. Gotta appreciate stuff people. Working life is crazy. Slogging so much for so little. Treasure what you have ya. Imagine if you work only like part time or temporary. To others its like a lifetime job/career.
12:47 am;
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
title:{Getting Sick}
Hmm its been many months since I'm supposed to post that 5 weird facts about myself. Well I guess I'll write it tomorrow. Its super weird. Lol. Well at least you people can get to know me better. Whether you like it or not.
Been quite a bad week I must say. Although there is Chinese New Year and stuff. But there are lot of issues bugging me. Anyways I'll write about the cool stuff first.
Second day of chinese new year. Well it was no activities on, so I decided to go out with my long lost friend. I haven't seen her for about 10 years now. Used to go to Yamaha Music for lessons as a group. Then well found out where she was studying from her mom through my mom. Weird meeting sometimes can reveal much. Anyway got her friendster by chance from a CJ girl. Whom by chance I managed to know somehow. Man people really can change. She is not longer who I remembered. Freaky change I must say. But still its good to meet her. Lol. A chance meeting. Well ate MOS burger.
I tell you ar. For the first time in my life, I was walking down Orchard Road. And it was not crowded at all. It was so quiet man. No crowd. Everywhere is practically closed. Like walking into another dimension like that. There was not much people around. Mostly food and HMV and some other enthu shops open. Man freaky experience. Anyways went home after that. Couldn't go to her house cause her mom's not home. Dang no extra Hong Bao.
Anyways here my negative part. My health has not been really good lately. I guess its all the eating and drinking. But yea. Feeling rather weak. Was swimming and running today. Wah seriously no stamina man. My arms just not responding as well. And the flow of 'energy' isn't right as well. Ya I do try meditation and stuff like that. The 'Chi' in me seems displaced. I don't know man. I just don't feel right. Not exactly feeling sick or whatsoever. Haiz. Woe is me.
10:25 pm;
