Man life is just plain stupid. I don't why but I'll just probe into my mind and see what's fun to talk about. Of course the best thing to talk about is about life as a whole. So anyone in this planet actually has time to enjoy life as it is? For instance maybe take a few minutes to go rest awhile and think about what they have been doing, or find time to go learn a new skill and enjoy themselves. Well everything about today is money money money and more money.
Sure I don't argue that money is basically one of the driving forces in life. I need money to like survive, buy food, clothes and enjoy the simple necessity in life. Even going for a swim to relax needs money. So much for 'public' pool. Well its been a long time since I did what I enjoy. Kayaking(renting needs money and no time), swimming(no time), reading books(no time), everything basically just means no time.
Everywhere you go you hear time management, time management, time management. Wow I love this concept except it sucks!(paradox). Sure I got a cool timetable and I am able to finish up my work on time, but I lose my life. No time for relaxation and just meditation even. I spend all my time working and studying to earn money. I don't really go against this but its just what everyone is doing. We're killing ourselves and we're loving it(sorry macdonalds). Its does idiots who take advantage of people's relaxation and use it to backstab them that leaves everyone in a fear of losing out. Good news all, you're not losing out, you already lost it.
Its kinda unfair those 'rich' people get to 'enjoy' life. Why the inverted commas? Thinking about in religious sense, if I interpret correctly you don't really need material and earthly possession to be happy. Even giving them all away and having nothing makes you happy. So people people, rest awhile, don't get caught up by the world's interpretation of life. They simply want you to work to your death so they can get your job. Rest awhile then continue, stay healthy and alive so you can whip their butt. And make friends not enemies.
Thinking about it I also find it quite stupid. Genocide, Tthe systematic and planned extermination of an entire national, racial, political, or ethnic group(new word of the day ain't it cool?). We, my fellow human race, are wiping each other out and causing our own extinction and rejoicing in it. War and fighting and all the crap you name it, probably numbering more than the quarks in your own body. Its just killing your own damn race/religion/species. You are all so stupid and I'm pointing at you(Bush, Terrorist, Osama, Whatever piece of shit terrorist group). Which brings me to the point of blogger power. Man you want to crap about other people go ahead. As if the world isn't in enough turmoil and you have to go create more disharmony amongst human beings. Good job everyone, all you power abuser, the world is heading towards its extinction and you are all laughing. I salute your damn brain and foolishness.
9:34 pm;
Saturday, May 21, 2005
title:{Losing My Musical Abilities}
Man when will I ever learn. Control my anger is so difficult it seems. Well punching walls isn't going to solve problems but create more. Man skin peeling off from the blows is so not a good sign. Haiz sooner or later got long term consequences.
Well music is my life. Or used to be. Right now I currently have no more abilities at all, or am starting to lose them. Ever since SYF ended its either I have a cough or a sore throat. I can't sing anymore and it totally sucks. Used to be so enthusiastic about it but then again now without choir, its kinda boring. But then again why bother with people who insist on jeopardising all that people stood for and worked hard for. My love just fades. Guess I'm pretty much a mercenary. I work and get my rewards and its game over.
Piano. Well punching walls for so many years as a means of venting my anger is so going to bust my fingers. I always regarded my fingers as my means of survival. Without them I cannot play the piano and its as good as losing my own life. I swear if I ever lose my abilities to play the piano or lose my fingers, I'll just probably end my life. Ironically, I seem to be accelerating this process. Man its dumb.
Star wars was cool. But watching it twice is kinda, well cool too. But I don't know whether was it worth it or not. I mean it was really awesome save for the lousy subtitles and too much talking nonsense script. But ya man less talking and more action would definitely make the movie real good. But as a fan I will say its good money well spent. No matter how bad some parts were I only will focus on the good ones. Lightsabre fighting rockz!
9:09 pm;
Sunday, May 15, 2005
title:{Rapport}
Rapport. People like people like themselves. Basically it means that people love themselves a lot. Everyone loves to talk about themselves and given a chance, if you let them, they can talk about themselves for many many hours. Not that its bad but strangely enough its quite true. People also like being with people of the same kind, meaning they like people who are like themselves. I mean it would be cool to have friends sharing the same interests as you and you can just talk about it all day long. Awesome.
Well I don't know why but I also have the tendency to talk a lot about myself. Duh its a blog why not. Ya so its kinda boring coming here and read about this guy who has so much problems. Well who doesn't have problems. Sheesh get on with life. Man why not reflect then, learn about flaws, correct flaws and be a better person.
Anyways I think building rapport is good. People like people like themselves. So you gotta just like be cool around them, learn what they like and also learn to like it. Sure they may have weird behavior but just imitating a bit can really put you subconsciously closer to that person. But there is something which you should take care of. Like for instance, trying too hard. I think I've been trying to hard in sometimes to be like others. I mean you should be yourself, but on the other hand should try to accomodate others.
This makes things kinda difficult doesn't it. Gotta be yourself and still gotta like be others. Hmmm, well whatever I have no idea why I'm talking about all these in the first place. Life is a horror since the term started. Man I'm falling behind and I'm kinda stuck in some rut. Many things have changed, or is it I have changed? Well be myself, so I didn't really change much, can it be the fault of others?
Don't blame others for things you should take responsibility for. Well that's kinda wise advice but if you keep changing for the better and things don't improve, is it still your fault? The best thing you can do well, if you want others to do something for you, you gotta do it for that someone first. Long term investment. Like my vice-principal used to say. Friendship is like a bank. What's inside it what you put in it. No matter how well you know a person, that account is always there. So the more you put in in a particular one, the more it grows and the interests accumulates. No matter how much you ignore it, it will still always be there. So make the full use of it.
So many stories I've learnt in secondary school from either the principal or the vice-principal. Its amazing how I can actually apply them to life. Everyone usually ignores such things but as you grow older, you realized wisdom in these words or stories. To you at first it might man, old boring stupid stories wasting my time. Once you get it, man it rockz. So how do you interpret things in life?
8:17 pm;
Sunday, May 08, 2005
title:{Happy Mother's Day}
Well its a good day for everyone as we set aside this day to celebrate mother's day. Heck we should be doing this everyday man. I mean your mom deserves more than just a day to thank them for all they have done for you. Gave birth to you and gave you shelther and education. They are practically a mortal version of God. Well I'm so sorry but I'm feeling kinda under the weather if not I would have composed a poem for all your moms out there. I think you are the coolest people on earth. Totally.
Well let's see. Hmmm let's talk about myself now. Well feeling sick and weak kinda makes you feel depressed. And seeing my grandmother today I am kinda surprised how frail she has become. Not the same person I once knew. But she is still strong in some ways. Glad to see her still there, quite old already. Haha sounds kinda bad of me but ya. I guess the China blood in her keeps her going on pretty strongly. Saw my cousin's wife for once. Well at least for that once now they are official wed. Too bad I missed out the wedding dinner. Man you guys really gotta make fridays official day for going out for dinner. A must must must.
Looking back at the past, it kinda make me realize what kind of person I was. I've changed much I suppose. Secondary school me and now, such a great difference. I suppose maturity gives you wisdom and the experiences you gain makes you a better person. But I'm more focusing on my evilness and nastiness and just pure anger. Last time I can remember the times when I did things that was just plain bad. Well not really bad, I mean the gangsters and Ah bengs were worse. But ya you can get the idea.
Right now looking back at things I've done I still see some same traits clinging onto me. I mean given a choice to blog everyday there probably going to have some entries which I can flame up like crazy. I've deleted a few. I realized being angry is no use. Why let the world upset you so much. Sure its really unfair and people out there are really idiots. But ya I try to cherish what I have now.
People might ask if you could live your life as someone better. Have more money or go other schools. If you have the chance to live again as something else. Something supposedly better. I'll definitely turn that offer down. I already lived a life that was great. My friends and families and all my loved ones. To live another life again I might not see the same people again. Have the same experiences. If I were to live again. I'll do everything the same, all the wrongs and rights I'll commit them once more. Because already this path chosen is the best I've even taken and I'll never take any other path.
So what if my results weren't up to standard. So what if I didn't get into top schools. So what if I didn't achieve more. Well who cares. Just enjoy life and not take your friends for granted. Especially your mother. Man all the things she did, no way you're ever going to repay her in your lifetime. So give all your moms a hug for me people. Peace out
8:32 pm;
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
title:{Silver}
What a day it has been. After so many long hours and days and weeks of practice, today was the day we can finally exhibit our skill. Despite whatever has happened, I still think it was a job well done also the results were not very satisfying. Well good job to all who did their best to give their greatest commitment and effort to putting this up together and giving such a punch. No thanks to stupid leechers such as you know who.
But overall I'm depressed about everything. Man its so not cool. Although I'm sure I can name a few ways how we are still lacking but ya. Everyone in school is like thinking our silver is like "not bad what?", "that's cool", "good job". Well if the looks of everyone's faces, their reactions after the results is being announced, I wouldn't say it was good. It was horrible. Hard work and effort just isn't good enough for that day. Man on the way home, the bus air-con broke down and it rained. But then again after a few minutes, it was okay again and it rained no more.
What can it be said? Well I guess bad things never last and good things will usually come again. To all those who believe.
-Well no point just keeping this scolding up. So removed it and the world is a happier place-
8:55 pm;
N {PROFILE}
Norman Woon
21 Years Young
Male
27/03/1987
MJS, MSS, CJC(rox)
