Man this exam stress is totally making me lose it. I'm going crazy, its making me paranoid and overreacting. Its so hard to think straight lately. All my thoughts just flying everywhere. Apparently things seem to revert back to like maybe last year. Things when it was like so chaotic. Thought I could have better organization of my ownself considering this being my second year. Now things are pretty messed up again.
Friends. Not the same anymore I suppose. I don't know who is who. Where do I stand. Am I back to being who I was again. Can't seem to click properly. Am I thinking too much. I feel much like I was in secondary school. Follow or lead. But even now I can't tell whethere I'm a follower or a leader. Who wants to follow? Or do I just want to be the lone ranger again. Man this sucks. Am I again overreacting and thinking too much. I don't really know.
So confusing these few days. Thought a few days break from studying might do some good. End up I let my thoughts run wild all over the place. Need to straighten things up. Hopefully I don't go crazy just because of the mid-years. Man I hate exams. The pressure to excel is great just as the need is. Must trash people's butt.
Somehow I'm really lost. I got my friends around people. People whom I can trust and talk to and share my feelings with. Even with them, I feel empty. God is missing in a way. Prayer, I pray every night. Yet there seems to be a wall. Am I again thinking too much and its just nothing. Really it seems my brain has been totally fried. Man this sux. I wish there is someone or something that can show me the way again. Despite everything around me, and having so much, I'm still not happy. I gotta just rethink everything again and see what exactly is missing and why is this just so weird.
8:16 pm;
N {PROFILE}
Norman Woon
21 Years Young
Male
27/03/1987
MJS, MSS, CJC(rox)
