Its a personal choice. Its about what you choose to do and accepting the consequences. How long shall I continue with my current state? Should I just bury all my negatives as I always do and just be happy. Or just throw away everything that I hold dear to myself and be a lone ranger. Both ways seem satisfying. The former and latter reaping no benefits whatsoever but just affecting the body and mind quite a lot.
Sitting in the darkness all alone. Waiting for someone for quite a while now. Who shall extend forth a hand which I will grab. And surface into the light once again. There can be no one at all. Or I've just been ignoring all who have been reaching out. That is even if there is anyone at all. I wonder who actually bothers to care.
Things just seem like the I'm walking alone yet again. Its been almost a year. Much have changed yet it is back to the way it was again. My last few ropes still hanging onto me. Perhaps I should just cut them away and float into oblivion. I doubt anyone cares anyway. So shall I do it or not? What have I to lose? Possibly more than I can imagine, and maybe more than what I expected it to be.
My musicality fades away. My voice reduces to nothing at all. I don't want to sing anymore. I see no reason to singing. Shall this be the rope I'll cut off? Remove any ideas of pursuing a choral career? Why not, since right now its bringing much pain than joy. I loved singing but how choir just degrades, my love simply disintegrates. The spark it was once, the flame is has been, starts to extinguish. But I can feel my life being tied down by it. If one is missing, the other goes as well. So how shall I play this game now?
8:18 pm;
N {PROFILE}
Norman Woon
21 Years Young
Male
27/03/1987
MJS, MSS, CJC(rox)
