Man, I'm so not productive these few days. Did very little studying and work. Well. Honestly its not I'm lazy or anything. I really want to do work, but don't have the discipline. But well, I guess its probably because I'm frozen with fear.
Yes. It is Fear that is killing me right now. I'm scared. I'm so scared about everything. Because after this year. My whole life is going to change. And its going to snowball into bigger and bigger times. Army. University. Work. Settling down(Well this is optional but it is there). Looking at the situation of the world, I wonder if I'm going to ever survive these condition. I mean I'm really freaked out. I see the world I'm living in, I sometimes fear I'll not be able to make it.
Maybe I'm thinking too far ahead. But I don't know. Take one day at a time. So many life advices just clashing with each other. Now I'm so confused I don't know what I'm going to do after army. What course to take. I wish to do something meaningful and interesting. Not sell my soul to corporate b***ards and just earn money whilst exploiting every single economy loophole that exists. Low cost, high profits. Man this is like totally ruining the world. I want to help people man. Look at what you morons have done to the world. The rich gap divide. Man killing man. Super wicked.
Thou shalt not kill. This commandment has been altered if you guys haven't noticed. We can kill, if the person is a criminal. We can kill, if it is to defend ourselves. All the ifs and many more. You might think how come God didn't think of all these factors when he made the commandment like allow us to kill to defend. Well, the answer is stupid. He doesn't want you morons to go around killing in the first place. Super DUH. Man wake up you fools. Sheesh. Like the Black Eyed Peas say "Where Is The Love?"
8:11 pm;
N {PROFILE}
Norman Woon
21 Years Young
Male
27/03/1987
MJS, MSS, CJC(rox)
