For the first time in my life, I didn't put Choir as top priority. Don't know whatever came over me. Lol. A changed man. Feel kinda guilty though. Mixed feelings. Don't know.
Went out with my secondary school friends. Went to Marina Bay to eat the steamboat there. Wah the soup damn salty man. Didn't really eat much until full. Everyone was like eat until wah cannot take it liaoz. Then go play arcade. LOL. I still can get high score for X-Men VS Street Fighter. Saw Aik Chong get top rank for the Combat game. Wah one man chiong sia. Went to Kovan Macs to sit down and talk cock. Talked about comicbook characters, like Superman and Spiderman and X-Men. Talked about their evolution and current stuff. Kinda fun.
Sianz. Life sucks. I got like really bad mood swings. Sometimes I'm okay. Sometimes I feel really like shit. Gotta rely on my Hershey Kisses to keep me up. Chocolate can help depression. So they say. Gonna create a bad habit and reliance on it. Beats alcohol anyway. But more fattening. Haiz.
I wonder how I'm gonna go through this phase. Kinda sucks. Not a kind of person who talks much about personal emotions. Finally burst liaoz. Shit feeling. Lost so much. Lost my faith in myself, in God. Lost my singing voice. Lost my old self. Now just like secondary school times again. Lots of vulgarities. Lol. Even now my speech in front of my Mom is kinda like let loose liao. Words I don't usually say just flows out.
Strange thing that I'm aware of it all. All the books I read sure makes you understand things better. But downside, I don't know how to solve the problem. I know and understand the causes and what things mean. But still, I can't fucking solve anything. Sianness. Where will this whole episode lead. Where will it end. When will it end. And most importantly. How will it end.
2:52 am;
N {PROFILE}
Norman Woon
21 Years Young
Male
27/03/1987
MJS, MSS, CJC(rox)
