24 hours guard duty is no joke man. Even for sentry. Prowlers work so much more. So fucked up. One ass go report sick, and the reserve never call in. So 9 man guard become 8 man. All the detail schedule ended up being screwed up as well. Supposed to do like 2 hours work, 4 hours rest. Total I end up doing 10 hours work. Fuck.
So much for being the good guy. Help you all enjoy your weekend. I end up fucking myself upside down. Gotta reschedule own personal stuff. Fuckers man. Give up already.
I totally like give up in life. I really don't know what the fuck is going anymore. Suddenly everything just makes no sense to me anymore. I don't know why things happen but ya they fucking happen. Shit man. Life sucks. I say it all the time but ya. People say its just in the mind. Well I guess I got a fucked up mind eh. Sianz. Really tired liaoz. Tired of everything. Tired of life. Every now and then I can feel God trying to reach out to me. And I am aware of that happening. Yet I just push it away.
How long more can I last. I predict maybe less than 2 years. Hopefully my horrors can end before ORD. Let it all end. Once and for all. Less worries. Less pain. Less suffering. Easy way out but who the fuck cares man. As far as I'm sure of it, this is one little speck of dust in the universe that will not be missed.
Haiz, what can bring about a quick and painless end. A bottle or two cough syrup? But tekong medicine kinda sucks. Panadols? How many man. I'm sure alcohol isn't going work. Unless I grind the pills or something, faster reaction I heard. Lol.
Music supposed to be something that bring joy to me. Now I end up crying most of the time. I avoid every opportunity to gather and sing. Fucked up. Everything is.
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Norman Woon
21 Years Young
Male
27/03/1987
MJS, MSS, CJC(rox)
